Some of the bad things that can happen while living alone have occurred in my life seriously within a 3 day period. Here's a list of the bad thing along with an attempt to look on the bright side.
Relationship ended. ++++ new song written. money saving. time to regain focus.
Job terminated. ++++ more time.
phone destructed. ++++ new iphone4 purchased at a very cheap price.
red light pull over. ++++ learned a lesson. never drive in an unfamiliar city with so many things on your mind especially
immediately following the destruction of your only gps device.
Fix it ticket. ++++ when moving to a new area, always update your driver's license.
parking citation obtained. **** learned a lesson. Never park within in 15' of a fire hydrant no matter how far in the boondocks
you believe you are. The police will find you.
identity theft. **** lesson learned. Be careful with online purchases.
car tag expiration on the verge which = HOURS at the DMV which results in a mandatory SMOG check. **** didn't really learn a lesson here other than try to schedule an appointment as opposed to walking up to the DMV like a dummy expecting the line to be shorter than 4 hours.
t-shirt online store continues to automatically charge by the month yet I haven't ordered more product. Supply > Demand.
++++ charge pre-orders.
Surprise $1000.00 fine. ++++ don't get caught slippin? lol.
It is very much so overwhelming but the thing is, and I'm not sure if all of you have noticed this, but, I have been working on endurance and long suffering for some time now. Many of these things could have been avoided if I would have LIED my way out of them, however, I believe in honesty despite the misfortunes that it may bring upon you.
With that being said, I have seriously been more determined now than ever to make something out of nothing.
I never liked to talk to people. Honestly, I still don't exactly like talking to random people especially those who appear to be quite haughty, but, so be it. You can never have first hand experience and insight with a person until you actually make the attempt to talk to them. If they respond unfavorably, it's not the end of the world. Simply add them on THE LIST.
i already met this really cool dude with my new outlook on, well, life. His name is Corey and he works at a local boutique. He has already started to help me out by reserving a spot for my "DEMO CD" that I plan to start burning in the very near future. Then I met some promoter kids. I forget their names but they came into the store and it just worked out. They were passing out flyers for some MIA x NERD concert coming up when I introduced myself and started actually TALKING instead of mean mugging the whole world which is what i could very easily do considering how upset I am about my recent losses.
I've investigated a way to start performing regularly. Increased the possibility of doing so, at least.
I've called people. I have some unbelievable contacts who I never call because I never want to exactly be a nuisance and sometimes I'm just flat out nervous to interrupt anything in their super important schedules. I called only one of these contacts and they gave me some good advice.
I have contacted people with less internet (buzz? lame) than myself who actually perform on the regular in attempts to figure out how I can get in on this performance bus. My Ex performed probably every weekend while we were together in her band and that has low key encouraged me to start doing my thing which is why I won't go super grimey on her on a new song that I have. You'll hear it most likely.
About the DEMO.
this is the tracklist:
1. i think i
3. for the win
4. heartbreak double
5. shotgun ( on v5)
this tracklist may appear weak as a mug but the thing is, these are probably my only songs that can be understood by any random person and are rather performable with the exception of 'i think i' which I do not plan to perform anytime soon.
the DEMO DVD.
these videos are included:
1. for the win.
2. holographic double
3. bird's eye view
4. dark wing double
5. gigaton punch
Unlike the complimentary cd that came with the shirts that were purchased, this dvd focuses more on being attractive to a complete stranger so immediately upon insertion you are going to see the revolving red TSST logo as the 'dark wing double' instrumental plays. the background title menu is in all black and the videos are aligned accordingly and colored similarly to my website.
I use to think that my website is weak as a mug but now I'm like......at least I HAVE a website. I'm not going to down my site. I'm not a web designer or anything so yeah..
In these CD and DVD DEMOS I will include 1 of my business cards. I already had these made the other week. The card promotes my Youtube and includes my website address in addition to my email address.
The blank CDs that I'm using are going to be solid white. I don't have the money to get fancy on them.
The cd cases are plastic. Protect the planet.
idk iwhat I'm talking about.
Anyways....I say all of this knowing that someone could very easily take my plan and use it for themselves but by doing so you will not exactly be TRUE to YOURSELF. If you would like to take this idea and run it, be my guest. I refuse to quit hip hop entirely until I can honestly say that I have tried every way possible to be able to make music as a means of supporting myself. That would be the dopest job, as far as I can tell.
Knowing that Lupe and his camp recognize me in person and can talk to me without worrying about me trying to invade their circle.
Knowing that Big Sean is a nice guy in person and even follows me on Twitter.
Knowing that Just Blaze even took the time to give one of my songs a listen.
Knowing that my uncle told me that he ran into someone over there in Boston who knew about me already...
that when I went to Louisiana, people actually knew me on sight and showed love..
that I receive emails from every state and many countries...
that all ages, races, and species have been in tune with what I release.....
knowing all of these things in addition to knowing about those who doubt my artistic ability results in a strong desire to, as cliche as it may sound, go For The Win.
Thank you for your continued support.
I'm working, I've been working.
As I make progress in this operation, I believe that I may attempt to locate boutiques in different states across the U.S. and possibly in other countries though the latter may prove to be very difficult.
I'm doing self promotion here in one part of California. Imagine if I could send you physical copies of this CD x DVD package. Would you be willing to hit up different boutiques and venues ?
I'm not talking HEY WUT UP GOT CD 4 U CHECK IT HOTNESS LOOK...but actually talking to the person...honest conversation.
si se puede.